I’m counting down the hours until I have to sleep. Sleep isn’t even good for me anymore. It’s just a waste of time before I have to work. I view sleep as time that could be spent doing what I want. Spending it with my wifey and having fun. Now I know everyone wishes that they could have all the time in the world. And I know that I’m bitching, but I’m in a bitchy mood right now.
I look at the clock and even though I don’t go to bed until midnight or just before. I see the clock as I have only five hours of free time left. When the weekend hits I view it as only two days of free time. Working there is so nasty. Factory jobs suck. I don’t care if someone else says ‘It’d be the same anywhere else.’ No it wouldn’t. I’ve worked everywhere else and I’d rather be at those other places even making less than being there right now.
I miss Hot Topic. Honestly. It’s the only job that I truly enjoyed and liked all my managers. I worked my butt off there and even took days off to work there. I liked it that much. Now it’s gone. And I hope my fellow HT co-workers have found better places and are thriving in this downtrodden economy.
There are so many great people in the world that are never recognized for all their hard work. People that have great talent that will never be seen in the public eye as great. But I live for the underground and while I do long for the spotlight. I’d rather see my creativity thrive in the underground. Popular amongst the unknown. Sleep I wish you could be nicer to me and give me comfort during my down time. But you are just a hassle right now. But trying to go insomniac isn’t good. It reared it’s ugly head and now I’m just a zombie in the slave factory. Looking for any way out.
Applications are in, I pray to God I hear from something!